| Wow, I havent been on here in a good while. Not many people read this anymore, so I'm just gonna vent on here pretty much in this post. Here goes...
Ya know, I apologize a lot, and I've started to realize that half the stuff I've apologized for in the past was stupid because it wasnt even my fault. But thats just me, I always want things to be good, so if I have to take the blame and say Im sorry then thats what I'll do. But I dont wanna do that anymore. I know I sat there and said I didnt like her and what not, but I realized how high school that is. Im 18 years old, sure shes an "ex" or whatever but for me to not like her because of that is stupid. And yeah I really was mad about what happened between yall because we were talking, but like you say...we're just talking its not like we're going out. Here lately Ive had a lot of time to think about things. Plus me and her havent even talked but maybe 2 times? And that was just on myspace. And the first time it wasnt even about you it was more about someone else...so if you're worried about that then you shouldnt be at all. Anyways, but times when you've told me we're taking things too fast, I thought we werent...but I think we were...honestly. I do wanna keep talking to you and Im not sure if thats the case with you or not. But what happened last week..you know...maybe that was takin things a little too fast, and I think that may have scared you away a little. And it scared me a little too because after that I REALLY didnt wanna get hurt or feel used, then 2 days after that you completely quit talking to me so I felt like you used me kinda. Thats why it hurt so bad. If you woulda just came out and said hey look Im busy, I'll call you when I get time...I woulda understood. But you rejected my calls, didnt answer my texts etc etc..Im a girl, how am I supposed to feel? You dont know how much I cried cause I thought you completely hated me. I didnt know what to think. And I know you think I get mad about everything, and really I dont want you to think that. I try my hardest. Like I said about taking things too fast tho, hanging out with each other isnt taking things too fast. And I feel like we hardly even saw each other and didnt even really talk THAT much and you felt like we were moving soooo fast. I dont think so. Some things yes, maybe shoulda been put off. But I dont think you understand that I DO like you A LOT..Im sure that scares you, honestly it kinda scares me too, but its my feelings, I cant deny them. This is long so Im gonna end it here...but when you have time you do what you think you need to do, whether its talking to me, or telling me that things arent the same anymore and its done. But whichever it is, I need to know not just left hanging wondering what I did wrong....
"Ever The Same"
We were drawn from the weeds
We were brave like soldiers
Falling down under the pale moonlight
You were holding to me
Like a someone broken
And I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you now
Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down
Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you forever in me
Ever the same
We would stand in the wind
We were free like water
Flowing down
Under the warmth of the sun
Now it's cold and we're scared
And we've both been shaken
Hey, look at us
Man, this doesn't need to be the end
Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down
Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same
You may need me there
To carry all your weight
But you're no burden I assure
You tide me over
With a warmth I'll not forget
But I can only give you love
Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same(Ever the same) |
